101st Vyasa-puja Offering from Indulekha Dasi

All Glory to Sri Guru and Sri Gauranga! 

Hare Krishna!

My humble obeisances to all devotees!

I am deeply grateful to Srila Gurudev for accepting me as his disciple.

When I first found out about Krishna Consciousness and Gurudev in 2013, I felt that this was my path, the very thing I had been searching for. At first, I had doubts—was he truly my spiritual master? I prayed for a sign. Then one night, Gurudev appeared to me in a dream and called me to follow him.

It was difficult to take a leave from work, so I had to arrange a sick leave. In May 2014, I flew to Kolkata to receive Harinam. I knew that Gurudev was in the lila of illness and that I would not be able to speak with him personally, but that did not stop me.

Arriving in India with a girl from another country, we both experienced a cultural shock. Reaching our Math with great difficulty, we spent a few days recovering. But having settled in a little, I realized that I had come home, I among my spiritual family.

At first, I did not know Vaishnava etiquette and often made mistakes, but there was always someone in the Matha who explained and showed me the right way. I felt Gurudev’s support and his mood in everything. We attended Gurudev’s darshans, learned to sing bhajans, and this extraordinary energy of devotion filled my heart and soul with joy.

During that one week, I understood and felt so much, but upon returning home, I again faced the influence of Maya. However, Gurudev continuously pulled me out of illusion—through his disciples, through different situations, or by appearing in my dreams.

In 2015, I was able to visit the Dham for a month, and in 2016—for four months. These were the happiest and most vivid moments of my life.

Now, material life has absorbed me strongly, and performing bhajan has become very difficult. But despite this, Gurudev continues to support me—sending his disciples who, through their guidance, convey his instructions to me.

My life would have been empty if I had not met Gurudev. In the most difficult and confusing moments, he has always shown me the way.

I hope that one day, I too will return home—to God.

—Indulekha Dasi (Germany/Austria)