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The Rain Stops for Him

Once we were in Dehradun and Nagar-Sankirtan was about to start. It started raining heavily. Guruji came with Amarendra Prabhu under an umbrella. The hall was filled with devotees, the musical band was playing music.

Many scattered because of the rain. but Guruji called Srikant Prabhu and asked him to sing the kirtan "Kripa Karo hum par Shyam Sunder..."

After that, Guruji sang "Sri Krishna Chaitanya Prabhu Nityanand Sri Advait Gadadhar Srivas Adi Gaura Bhakta Vrinda," and as soon as he started Nitai Gauranga, the rain stopped.

The sky became clear and sun was seen. Then all the devotees went for Nagar sankirtan started. As soon as the nagar kirtan reached back to the math, it started raining heavily once again.

Srila Bhakti Vilas Tridandi Maharaj (2015)

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