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He Gives Bliss to Devotees Even in the Midst of Fearful Surroundings

Devotees from all over India had arrived at GNRC hospital in Guwahati after Gurudev was admitted there. There were many who did not worry about their job or family responsibilities and just left. We were very anxious and worried about Gurudev's health. That tension was seen on the faces of devotees and his sevak team.

Gurudev responded to each and every person who had come there. I had seen the line for Gurudev's darśan in the maṭh previously, and I was reminded of that when I saw the line in GNRC hospital. While we were waiting, we heard that Gurudev has come to external consciousness and is giving darśan.

I saw this as if Gurudev was reciprocating with the devotees who had come there. One devotee who had come from Bombay went in to have darśan and came out. His name was Bunty. He was so happy. He said that Gurudev's face was so bright. The darśan that he had was seen on his shining face. He was so happy.

Jyoti Mātājī was the next to have darśan. When she came out, she was also so happy. I thought Bombay devotees have a different kind of mood, a different kind of feeling –it must be their special fortune that they are getting this kind of darśan. I wondered what kind of darsan I would have.

The next person to come out was Ashok Prabhu from Bangalore. He was so happy!

He said, "Gurudev's face is so bright, he is like a newborn baby."

He is a practical person, he doesn't come in a mood of bhāv very easily. If you prepare a dish for him, if he doesn't like it he says it is not good, so I thought, he is also saying!

Finally, it was my turn to have darśan of Gurudev. I will never forget that darsan. It was like he was the rising sun – a soothing color, but without giving strong waves. It was a very reassuring darśan. His lotus face was turned toward the devotees who were coming for darśan. His eyes were open, and his lotus hands were moving. It was altogether a different darśan we all had, and then I came to understand what the three devotees must have been feeling.

I understood that darsan as a reciprocation with all the devotees who had come there, and an acceptance of the service offered by the devotees from their hearts.

—Nanda Dulal Das, Kolkata

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