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Absolute Shelter of Guru Seva

Earlier, we used to have the math in a rented house at Rashbihari Avenue. Our Gurumaharaj used to call “Krishna Ballabh” always, and as soon as he was called, he would leave aside every other activity, including eating, to respond to him. In this way, he would serve Guru Maharaj. 

I still remember an incident that took place in front of me. One day, Maharaj needed to go to a government office at 11am. Pujyapad Keshav Prabhu and Jagamohan prabhu asked him where he was going.

He replied, "As per the order of Guru Maharaj, I am going to an office for some work."

"It is nearly 11 AM, time for the bhoga to be offered to Thakurji, You should take prasadam before leaving," they said.

“How can I take prasad before all of you take? Also, the time I need to be there in the office as per the order of Gurudev is approaching," Krishna Ballabh brahmachari said.

Despite his argument, they insisted him to eat prasad, and just to follow their order, he sat down and started taking.

That time Gurumaharaj came and asked him, “Krishna Ballabh, haven’t you gone to the office yet?” That was that! He stopped eating any further.

Guru Maharaj told him, “Finish your meal.” But Maharaj could not eat any further.

He started crying incessantly thinking, “I left the service of Guru Maharaj for serving my stomach?”

Just think of his state! I personally witnessed this incident. He did not eat any further, but immediately left for serving Guru Maharaj. Whenever Guru Maharaj used to call him for any service, he was instantly ready to perform it. Such was his dedication towards our Guru Maharaj.

—Srila Bhakti Rakshak Narayan Maharaj (2012)


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