When I came to the maṭh first in the beginning, the love that I got from Śrīla Gurudev... I'm not sure that anyone else has got, because I was such a small child when I came here.
When I came to get Harinām from Gurudev, he asked, "What is your name? I told my name.
He said, "What is your father's name? and I told his name. Then he said, "Oh, you are the son of that devotee? You want to come to Delhi with me?"
Before Guru Mahārāj had finished giving me Harinām, as he was extending the mālā to me, he was telling me to come to Delhi with him. I was from Āgartalā, so I was missing my place, and I was weeping. I thought in my mind, Guru Mahārāj, it is very difficult for me to stay away from my family, so I will stay in Āgartalā maṭh and serve from there, I will not go anywhere else. The next morning Guru Mahārāj saw me.
I paid obeisances to Guru Mahārāj, and then he asked me, "Is your stomach okay?" I nodded my head yes.
Then he asked, "Is your mind okay?" I remained silent.
He then said, "You see, whenever anyone comes to the maṭh, there will be some disturbance. You just stay, then everything will be okay. Whenever anyone comes to the maṭh, it happens like this, don't worry."
Later I heard that when Guru Mahārāj was a brahmacari in the maṭh, he got letters from his father. When he approached Param Gurudev, he told him not to reply.
In the last letter, from his father, he made a deeply emotionally appeal, requesting "Wherever you are, please tell me that you are all right."
Gurudev said, "I was in such a situation, I could not reply to my father because of what Param Gurudev told me. I went on the roof of the maṭh and started shouting, Jay Gurudev! Jay Gurudev!"
Immediately after that, I had such feelings of calm and peacefulness. Param Gurudev had showered such grace that all those feelings of lamentation were gone. Similarly, when I first went away from my house, I felt that Gurujī had showered that strength from above."
- Suman Das, Delhi