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You're Chanting?

The most important day of my life is when I got brahman diksa from Srila Gurudev. All the devotees were getting 5-10 minutes to talk with him, but because I lived nearby, I was asked by the sevaks, "What will you say? You get the chance to speak with him every day."

Yet, I thought this was my golden opportunity. When I finally went into the room, I just sat looking at Him. Guru Maharaj was first telling the methods of chanting the diksa mantras and I was completely mesmerized by his beauty. It was impossible for me to move my eyes from his face.

When Srila Gurudev starting chanting the mantra, I was not repeating after him.

"Say! You have to repeat after me."

Then, I started chanting after him. Again my mind was diverted to Gurudev's beautiful face, so I was just looking at him. He again chanted the second mantra and asked me to repeat it.

He said, "Say!" Then Guru Maharaj again chanted the mantras.

As I was busy looking at him, I asked him to please chant the mantra again. Some of the words were difficult for me to pronounce. So, Guru Maharaj would not leave me until I pronounced properly.

After giving me all the mantras, He raised his hand up and said, "Chant these mantras, don’t be afraid of anyone, the blessings of Caitanya Mahaprabhu are there."

The next day when I came at the time of darshan to pay obeisances, Guru Maharaj again made an inquiry.

"Chanting? You're chanting?"

I said, "Yes, Guru Maharaj." By your grace.

—Sundar Gopal Das, Kolkata



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