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"She Has Gone to Golok Dham"

Guru Maharaj is not an ordinary person, he is sent by the Supreme Lord to rescue all of us. In the office, if we are working in one place, we may be deputed to another place to do some work. Similarly, Gurudev has been deputed from Golok Dham to help us. Guru Maharaj has come here by his own desire, and he has come here to fulfill the desire of Hari-Guru-Vaishnavas.

In Gokul Mahavan, in 1997, I took Harinām along with my dharmapatni, my wife. Guru Maharaj asked my wife, "If something has happened to you, how do you take this, as if Gurudev is at fault, or other persons are at fault?”

My wife replied, “Whatever happens, I think it is all good for me, by your arrangement.”

In 2013, my wife was detected with breast cancer, and later she left this world. Some devotees came to the math and gave the news to him.

Gurudev replied, "She has gone to Golok Dham."

In the hospital, I remember when my wife was in the ICU, and the doctor came and told me, "Your wife is in the final stages, you want to go and meet her?"

I went, and my wife told me, “In Drops of Nectar, on page 30, there is a picture of Guru Maharaj touching tulasi leaves.” As soon as that photo was taken to her, she immediately took off the oxygen mask.

She said, “Guru Maharaj has come here. I have to go... I have to go.”

She immediately left the body.

—Prem Prabhuji, Delhi






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